Right now, I wish it would rain. Holy cow, it's hot in Southern California.
Life is busy right now. The church is selling it's property and moving. Work is getting through a real busy season so it may calm down. Schools are getting to the end for the kids. T-ball and challenger leagues are up and running for Becca and Micah and umpiring is in full swing. Ah, the busy life. I enjoy it actually.
But then, the whole world can crash down anytime now. If you have been following Trina's blog (http://supermommiesbeautifullife.blogspot.com/), you know about her recent vision problems. You also know about a possible reason for it. Well, in case you haven't, Trina is being seriously tested to see if she has Multiple Sclerosis, or MS. Until recently, all I knew about MS is that Jerry Lewis raises money for it. From what I have heard from Trina, it doesn't look pretty.
Trina had a doctor's appointment today and they put her on a second medication (the first is doing funny things to her blood sugar, which messed up a blood test today apparently and makes her feel tingly all over) which I guess is usually for those who have a full-blown MS diagnosis. They haven't told her one way or the other definitively yet but might as well have with this.
Trina is such a great mom, a great person and my best friend. I don't know what to feel right now. It took me a while to get used to Micah's autism diagnosis -- not that I was in denial but that I didn't want to learn more about it, didn't want to learn of the full ramifications, or didn't want to deal with the emotional heap that was inside of me. I think I am on the verge of that same place with my wife and I can't hope she'll grow out of it or that I will grow into it like I did with Micah. We have too many responsibilities to our family to pretend it isn't happening.
So here I am confused, dumbfounded, and lost, not necessarily wanting to be found. I'll continue on the best I can, try to be a better husband and father, and try to change my attitude. If this is God's way of trying to get me to grow up, it's painful. Autism isn't enough but now there's MS. I hope and pray that the girls don't develop anything greater than cheerleaderism and twinism. Of course, I am only part of it -- there are a lot of people affected by this. But I know, through it all, that God is good. God is kind and merciful and the source of strength, peace, and compassion.
Oh yeah, after the appointment, Trina came home, told me a little bit, then took off to go hang out with our sister-in-law. On the way, she called me on her cell phone to tell me where she was going so I wouldn't worry and of course, got pulled over for talking on a cell phone while driving. On top of that, while in my car, I did not have current proof of insurance in the car (it is insured and there are tons of old copies of other policies, just not the current.) So that will be a dandy ticket when she has to report on Friday to court. Stupid nanny state. Yeah, she was breaking the law and deserves the ticket but I can complain about the law in the first place :D
Job 1:21
"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."
1 comment:
I love your description of your isms - autism, twinism, cheerleaderism. We are dealing with autism in the twinism plus big brother ism with autism :) And big sister-ism. Not to mention mito-ism :) :) :) I'm going to have to share all the isms. A merry heart does good like medicine :)
On a more serious note, as a 50ish Christian of over 30 years, it seems like we are seeing more and more trials impact more and more Christians. God has promised that He will train us, discipline us, provide for us, lead us, and mold us and we are definitely seeing that right now. But if we, in the midst of our pains, continue to give God the glory, others in the midst of their pains will, hopefully, hunger for what we have.
Today in my Bible study, God so encouraged me with such great verses and I hope they will be an encouragement for you, along with the knowledge that someone else is praying for you today :) :) :)
Psalm 56:3-4 When I am afraid, I will trust in you. 4 In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid.
1 Thess 5:15-18 6 Be joyful always; 17 pray continually; 18 give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:28-31 we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. 31 What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?
Proverb 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Also - 2 Cor. 1:5
Phil. 4:13
2 Tim 1:7-8
1 Thess. 3:2-5
James 1:2-4
Job 2:9-10, 6:10 (I noticed you had a Job one as well :) :) :) )
God bless you all and hold you close! :)
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