Has it been a year? Really?

Wow, I just read my last post and I'm confused by it. What was I talking about? Was something that important to me that I now do not remember what it was?

It has been a while since I posted here. I have a confession to make. I, like so many times before, got drawn into something and forgot who I am. This time, it was comedy music. It is something I enjoy immensely and may, when the time is right, start up again but not to the level I was at. Moderation. Right now, though, it is cold turkey. I have got to get my priorities straight once again.

My wife brought up a good point about this a few weeks ago. With all of the songs I wrote, nothing was for kids. If that is where I enjoy being, why don't I write some songs geared towards them. They can be funny. I am thinking about that now.

Why the sudden change? This weekend, I went to a Men's Retreat with my church. For Friday and Saturday, not much got through to me. I listened, but really it seemed like a lot of old hat since I have heard, and have taught, the passages being covered about the life of Elijah. The story of Elijah on Mt. Carmel is like my favorite action scene in the Bible. But something that was said on Monday got to me. It was small, something said in passing. The story was about Elijah, after Carmel, running down to Beersheba, then out to the wilderness so he could go find a tree to lie under and die. Twice, an angel comes to Elijah and feeds him food and water. The second time saying, "Eat, for the journey ahead is too much for you." Elijah would have died without the provision of the Lord there. Then the speaker turned and said, "If you have lost your excitement, are you eating the Lord's provisions?"

A couple of weeks ago, my mom hosted a Veggietales sing-along at her church and I led. I was lackluster. My performance was flat and I just couldn't get excited. My life has been like that lately. I can't get excited about what is important to get excited about. I am drained and tired and lackluster and blase. I have too long tried to refresh my self with my own devices, be it baseball, comedy music, video games, work, working with kids, food, or whatever else is available and not gone to the well that will cause me to thirst no more.

So now, I ask for your prayers that God will continue to work through what He started Sunday, and 28 years before that, and restore unto me the joy of my salvation. I have been hiding in Sinai too long with God asking me what I am doing here.