Two Songs on my Playlist

If you scroll to the bottom of my blog, there is a playlist of songs that I love.  I am able to listen to them today, surprisingly, and two of them stuck out to me more particularly -- one because it always does and it really is more of my life song, the second because of the events of the day.

 

The first is "Missing Person" by Michael W. Smith.  This, outside of maybe "Every New Day" by Five Iron Frenzy, is my favorite song because it is who I am and the struggles I have been through.  Here are the lyrics:

 

1st Verse:
Another question in me
One for the powers that be
It's got me thrown
And so I put on my poker face
And try to figure it out
This undeniable doubt
A common occurrence
Feeling so out of place
Guarded and cynical now
Can't help but wondering how
My heart evolved into
The rock beating inside of me
So I reel such a stoic ordeal
Where's that feeling that I don't feel

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for that missing person

2nd verse:
Under a lavender moon
So many thoughts consume me
Who dimmed that glowing light
That once burned so bright in me
Is this a radical phase
A problematical age
That keeps me running
From all that I used to be
Is there a way to return
Is there a way to unlearn
That carnal knowledge
That's chipping away at my soul
Have I been gone too long
Will I ever find my way home

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching for that missing person

He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel it in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately, though
I've been searching for that missing person

Bridge:
For that missing person
For that missing person

Oh oh, oh oh,

Chorus:
There was a boy who had the faith to move a mountain
And like a child he would believe without a reason
Without a trace he disappeared into the void and
I've been searching...

He used to want to try to walk the straight and narrow
He had a fire and he could feel it in the marrow
It's been a long time and I haven't seen him lately, though
I've been searching for that missing person

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Where are you?
Where are you... (fades to close)

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In Sunday's post about accountabilty and being 'the good boy,' I relate to this song incredibly.  I look back and see times where I was exciting about serving God, about knowing God, and now I am more of a grumpy old man who's lost the ferver.  Now, so many times, I look to find the passion again.  It's still in there somewhere but to get it out of the heart of stone is a challenge -- pray that God will replace my heart of stone with a soft heart easily hurt but willing to be molded by the Lord.

 

The second song is "My Deliverer is Coming."  This version is sung by dc Talk for the Prince of Egypt soundtrack, but it is originally written by Rich Mullins -- one of my favorite writers, God bless his soul (yes, I know it's rest, but I know Rich is resting in the comfort of His Lord.)  Here's the lyrics:

 

Joseph took his wife and her child and they went to Africa
To escape the rage of a deadly king
There along the banks of the Nile, Jesus listened to the song
That the captive children used to sing
They were singing

My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by

Through a dry and thirsty land, water from the Kenyon heights
Pours itself out of Lake Sangra's broken heart
There in the Sahara winds Jesus heard the whole world cry
For the healing that would flow from His own scars
The world was singing

My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
He will never break His promise - He has written it upon the sky

My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by

My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
I will never doubt His promise though I doubt my heart, I doubt my eyes
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by

My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by
He will never break His promise though the stars should break faith with the sky
My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by

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My deliverer is coming.  I imagine alot of people feel that their deliverer gave a speech today after he was sworn into office.  No person ever sworn in as a politician will ever by my deliverer.  I will pray for my leaders.  I will obey them to the point they do not disobey the Lord.  I will respect them but they are not my deliverer.  My deliverer is coming!  Though I doubt my heart and my eyes, He is coming back for me to bring me home!  Oh, the joy that will be that He will call me His own, and not for what I have done.  I don't have to vote for Him -- He is already ruler.  I don't have to give Him everything for He owns it all.  My deliverer is standing by!

 

I do pray that God bless Obama and give him wisdom.  I actually loved Rick Warren's prayer today.  I pray that God will continue to bless George W. Bush in his endevours and thank God that Bush stood on principles and character even if it destroyed his reputation and legacy.  History will be kinder to Bush than his current critics.

 

But, in the end, Obama may do good or bad, but my deliverer is coming!  Amen!

 

Pray for Tim and Marc (Blogs to the right) as they are doing outreach in Siberia right now (although righ now they are probably sleeping.)